November 2009
2 posts
Just Us.
+18452359374: hey
DatSpikD: wat r u doin?
+18452359374: nothing
DatSpikD: are u allowed out?
+18452359374: Idk probably not..
DatSpikD: k well can u find out?
+18452359374: can i ask later?
DatSpikD: yea
+18452359374: K
DatSpikD: i miss u babyyyy
+18452359374: i miss you to. and im pretty sure we had a deal that if you LIE and say your going to school and don't, then i dont see you?
DatSpikD: ok if that was the deal then i guess i wont see u today
+18452359374: okay
DatSpikD: maybe 2morrow:/
+18452359374: maybe
+18452359374: and im pretty sure we had ANOTHER deal that you broke...big surprise..
about saturday?
DatSpikD: yea i know
DatSpikD: i have no excuse
+18452359374: sucks
DatSpikD: ...sorry
+18452359374: ive heard that before
DatSpikD: yea i know its not enough
+18452359374: it would be if you ment it
DatSpikD: but i do :.(
+18452359374: mhm if only you acted like it
DatSpikD: well im sorry im not perfect kerry
+18452359374: um okay? neither am i..but yet i can still keep a promise? makes alotta sence..
DatSpikD: i know
+18452359374: kthen
+18452359374: and it really sucked, cause i actually believed you* especially about today..
DatSpikD: i know u did thats y i feel shitty kuz i lied to u...again
+18452359374: then why do you do it if it makes you "feel like shit"?! like i dont evenn get ittt
DatSpikD: i dont want to do it..it just happens
+18452359374: oh right, it just...happens.
too bad that cant happen
like you could atleast tell me that you dont want to go, and if your not going to
DatSpikD: i know i kould but if i do u get madd and if i dont tell u, u get mad anyway kuz i lied
+18452359374: yeah, but i would never get mad at you for telling me the truth. i wont be happy, but i wont be as mad as i get when you just lie about it.
DatSpikD: yea but thats hurt me more when ur unhappy because all i want is for u to be happy but sometimes i cant always make u happy its hard.
+18452359374: like you get mad when i lie? try that everydayyyyy! and just cuz i beg you to go, doesnt mean lie and say you will, even though your not going to
DatSpikD: and i know that all i have to do is go to school like everyone else..and idk wat else to do
+18452359374: um heres an idea...GO FOR ONCE!
DatSpikD: i do go and u pretty much make me go another day n matter how much i dont want to
+18452359374: i cant make you do anything. yeah, i begggg you to go..thats just cause i really want to see you, sorry for being so selfish. just wanted to see my boyfriend
DatSpikD: and i just want to see u too just not in school and u make me do just about everything....idk wat u want me to do
+18452359374: if i was able to make you, id make you go everyday. like today? so i obviousallt can not MAKE you go
+18452359374: nothing. okay? you dont have to anything for me anymore. sorry for bothering you
DatSpikD: kerry stop
DatSpikD: ur making it seem like i cheated on u...not going to school isnt a big deal...the problem is that i led about going
DatSpikD: ur not bothering me also
+18452359374: ok um no. im nit acting like you cheated on me. and your right its not a big deal. so im done. and obviousally i am if its "not a big deal" so okay cool
DatSpikD: no me lying to u is a big deal its something i have a problem with but going to school do u really want to fight about it?
+18452359374: i dont wanna fight about anything. but you dont see it how i do. so its not going to change your mind. so fine, i dont care if you go to school anymore.
+18452359374: just dont expect me to put effort into seeing you either
DatSpikD: ok i wont
+18452359374: ok cool
DatSpikD: soo are we done fighting?
+18452359374: does it matter? im still gonna be upset, and your still not gonna give two shits. sooo eh, why not..
DatSpikD: do u honestly think that i dont care if ur upset or not
DatSpikD: like do u seriously think that after all the times ive cried just because ur were madd
+18452359374: yeah
+18452359374: crying doesnt prove that your sorry devin, it just means your sad. you have to prove your "sorry" and you never do. just saying sorry doesnt fix shit anymore
DatSpikD: i know but its not like im a fuckin genuis kerry sometimes i need u to tell me wat to do to make it better
+18452359374: well i did tell you what i wanted you to do.
but im done making you do shit. if you cared enough, you'd do it on your own
DatSpikD: your right..
+18452359374: great
DatSpikD: maybe i should do it on my own
DatSpikD: then again maybe not
+18452359374: wow really..
DatSpikD: yea really i might need ur help still...
+18452359374: can you please stop.
DatSpikD: stop wat...
+18452359374: nevermind. im done fighting.
this is fucking stupid
DatSpikD: well i was done a long time ago
+18452359374: well then why are you confusing me?
what do you mean by you should do it on your own?
DatSpikD: nvm it doesnt even matter
+18452359374: well it does to me
DatSpikD: its like ur still with me but im on my own...again
+18452359374: with what?
and your not on your own, im trying to help you, but you dont see it home i do. so im just wrong
DatSpikD: ur not wrong and if thats how u feel then y wouldnt u tell me how u feel so i can at least understand
+18452359374: i try devin!! but no matter how i say it, you dont agree. so i dont see a point in trying to convinse you anymore.
DatSpikD: see wat i mean u never tell me how u feel u just avoid it no wonder i dont agree with anything
+18452359374: um no. i do tell you. i just stop. cause you dont agree...i think you should go to school, you dont think so. nothings gonna change it
DatSpikD: well tell me how u see it
DatSpikD: kerry
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+18452359374: that you should be in school, everyday, like everybody else has to be. you already know what i think .we've gone through this a trillion times
DatSpikD: ok so i did know that but how can i make it better
+18452359374: um by going? you already knew that two.
but you dont want to
DatSpikD: ur right i dont want to but sometimes i still might go
+18452359374: yeah i know... like you've been doing..
DatSpikD: u know thats the reason we fight so much because u bring up shit we fought abou in the past over and over
+18452359374: um like what?
DatSpikD: me not going to school
+18452359374: um no. im telling you how i feel like you just told me to!! and you dont agree so you get mad at mee
DatSpikD: no i agreed 100% with u and im not madd but idk i dont really want to fight anymore please
+18452359374: Fine.
DatSpikD:
+18452359374: Feelings mutual
DatSpikD: wat?
+18452359374: Nothing
DatSpikD: ok?
+18452359374: Ya.
DatSpikD: so do u want me to go 2morrow?
DatSpikD: y did i even ask obviously u do
+18452359374: ? yeah... sooo just know that no matter what i want you to go more than anything. and you can deside
DatSpikD: k
DatSpikD:
+18452359374:
DatSpikD: send it again
+18452359374:
DatSpikD: its not showing up again
+18452359374: I LOVE YOU..
DatSpikD: ohh ok
DatSpikD: i love u 2 baby
DatSpikD: sometimes i just dont feel like being alive and that i dont deserve u
DatSpikD: it hurts to think that u deserve someone that wont lie to u
+18452359374: WHY? you need to stop thinking that your not good enough you are, your perfect. and i never said i deserve someone who wont lie. and it hurts when you lie too..
DatSpikD: im nowhere near perfect not even close...and u never needed to say it stuff like that goes without saying and i know it hurts
+18452359374: well i do need to say it if its true, obviousally.
cause thats not true. if it was, i wouldn't be with you. but i amm arent i?
DatSpikD: i guess...
+18452359374: you guess? ummmm no lol
you know so.: ]
DatSpikD: maybe
+18452359374: stopppp im sorry
DatSpikD: y are u sorry?
DatSpikD: its not ur fault i was the one who lied not u
DatSpikD: i just feel like ashamed of myself
DatSpikD: for treating u badd
+18452359374: you didnt treat me bad
DatSpikD: i lied
+18452359374: i'm sorry if i make it seem that way sometimes
DatSpikD: u dont
DatSpikD: thats how it is
DatSpikD: plain and simple
+18452359374: No. remember i lied to you before!?
DatSpikD: when?
DatSpikD: i dont remember that ever
+18452359374: about the cj thing when i erased our convo.
you said it was lying
remember?!
DatSpikD: well u had a right to i would have got mad
DatSpikD: plus it is ur fone
DatSpikD: and i should have trusted u anyway
+18452359374: So? Your my boyfriend. You should be able to see whatever you want!
DatSpikD: and ur my girlfriend but u dont need a guy thats gunna get jealous just for talking to ur friend
+18452359374: yes i do.
DatSpikD: no u have a life to and ever since we started dating u have lost like 3 maybe 4 friends
DatSpikD: all because of me
DatSpikD: im ruining ur life
+18452359374: no you arent, not even close.
and they obviousally weren't good friends, if they stoped being friends with me because of us. so it was worth it
DatSpikD: no it isnt ur friends are important im just a lying pothead im never gunna change ur better off leaving and finding some1 better kerry
+18452359374: is that what you want?
DatSpikD: never...
DatSpikD: i want u to be happy
“If people who fight alot are meant to be together forever, then im yours baby.”
– Me
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