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+18452359374:
i miss you to. and im pretty sure we had a deal that if you LIE and say your going to school and don't, then i dont see you?
DatSpikD:
ok if that was the deal then i guess i wont see u today
+18452359374:
okay
DatSpikD:
maybe 2morrow:/
+18452359374:
maybe
+18452359374:
and im pretty sure we had ANOTHER deal that you broke...big surprise..
about saturday?
DatSpikD:
yea i know
DatSpikD:
i have no excuse
+18452359374:
sucks
DatSpikD:
...sorry
+18452359374:
ive heard that before
DatSpikD:
yea i know its not enough
+18452359374:
it would be if you ment it
DatSpikD:
but i do :.(
+18452359374:
mhm if only you acted like it
DatSpikD:
well im sorry im not perfect kerry
+18452359374:
um okay? neither am i..but yet i can still keep a promise? makes alotta sence..
DatSpikD:
i know
+18452359374:
kthen
+18452359374:
and it really sucked, cause i actually believed you* especially about today..
DatSpikD:
i know u did thats y i feel shitty kuz i lied to u...again
+18452359374:
then why do you do it if it makes you "feel like shit"?! like i dont evenn get ittt
DatSpikD:
i dont want to do it..it just happens
+18452359374:
oh right, it just...happens.
too bad that cant happen
like you could atleast tell me that you dont want to go, and if your not going to
DatSpikD:
i know i kould but if i do u get madd and if i dont tell u, u get mad anyway kuz i lied
+18452359374:
yeah, but i would never get mad at you for telling me the truth. i wont be happy, but i wont be as mad as i get when you just lie about it.
DatSpikD:
yea but thats hurt me more when ur unhappy because all i want is for u to be happy but sometimes i cant always make u happy its hard.
+18452359374:
like you get mad when i lie? try that everydayyyyy! and just cuz i beg you to go, doesnt mean lie and say you will, even though your not going to
DatSpikD:
and i know that all i have to do is go to school like everyone else..and idk wat else to do
+18452359374:
um heres an idea...GO FOR ONCE!
DatSpikD:
i do go and u pretty much make me go another day n matter how much i dont want to
+18452359374:
i cant make you do anything. yeah, i begggg you to go..thats just cause i really want to see you, sorry for being so selfish. just wanted to see my boyfriend
DatSpikD:
and i just want to see u too just not in school and u make me do just about everything....idk wat u want me to do
+18452359374:
if i was able to make you, id make you go everyday. like today? so i obviousallt can not MAKE you go
+18452359374:
nothing. okay? you dont have to anything for me anymore. sorry for bothering you
DatSpikD:
kerry stop
DatSpikD:
ur making it seem like i cheated on u...not going to school isnt a big deal...the problem is that i led about going
DatSpikD:
ur not bothering me also
+18452359374:
ok um no. im nit acting like you cheated on me. and your right its not a big deal. so im done. and obviousally i am if its "not a big deal" so okay cool
DatSpikD:
no me lying to u is a big deal its something i have a problem with but going to school do u really want to fight about it?
+18452359374:
i dont wanna fight about anything. but you dont see it how i do. so its not going to change your mind. so fine, i dont care if you go to school anymore.
+18452359374:
just dont expect me to put effort into seeing you either
DatSpikD:
ok i wont
+18452359374:
ok cool
DatSpikD:
soo are we done fighting?
+18452359374:
does it matter? im still gonna be upset, and your still not gonna give two shits. sooo eh, why not..
DatSpikD:
do u honestly think that i dont care if ur upset or not
DatSpikD:
like do u seriously think that after all the times ive cried just because ur were madd
+18452359374:
yeah
+18452359374:
crying doesnt prove that your sorry devin, it just means your sad. you have to prove your "sorry" and you never do. just saying sorry doesnt fix shit anymore
DatSpikD:
i know but its not like im a fuckin genuis kerry sometimes i need u to tell me wat to do to make it better
+18452359374:
well i did tell you what i wanted you to do.
but im done making you do shit. if you cared enough, you'd do it on your own
DatSpikD:
your right..
+18452359374:
great
DatSpikD:
maybe i should do it on my own
DatSpikD:
then again maybe not
+18452359374:
wow really..
DatSpikD:
yea really i might need ur help still...
+18452359374:
can you please stop.
DatSpikD:
stop wat...
+18452359374:
nevermind. im done fighting.
this is fucking stupid
DatSpikD:
well i was done a long time ago
+18452359374:
well then why are you confusing me?
what do you mean by you should do it on your own?
DatSpikD:
nvm it doesnt even matter
+18452359374:
well it does to me
DatSpikD:
its like ur still with me but im on my own...again
+18452359374:
with what?
and your not on your own, im trying to help you, but you dont see it home i do. so im just wrong
DatSpikD:
ur not wrong and if thats how u feel then y wouldnt u tell me how u feel so i can at least understand
+18452359374:
i try devin!! but no matter how i say it, you dont agree. so i dont see a point in trying to convinse you anymore.
DatSpikD:
see wat i mean u never tell me how u feel u just avoid it no wonder i dont agree with anything
+18452359374:
um no. i do tell you. i just stop. cause you dont agree...i think you should go to school, you dont think so. nothings gonna change it
DatSpikD:
well tell me how u see it
DatSpikD:
kerry
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+18452359374:
that you should be in school, everyday, like everybody else has to be. you already know what i think .we've gone through this a trillion times
DatSpikD:
ok so i did know that but how can i make it better
+18452359374:
um by going? you already knew that two.
but you dont want to
DatSpikD:
ur right i dont want to but sometimes i still might go
+18452359374:
yeah i know... like you've been doing..
DatSpikD:
u know thats the reason we fight so much because u bring up shit we fought abou in the past over and over
+18452359374:
um like what?
DatSpikD:
me not going to school
+18452359374:
um no. im telling you how i feel like you just told me to!! and you dont agree so you get mad at mee
DatSpikD:
no i agreed 100% with u and im not madd but idk i dont really want to fight anymore please
+18452359374:
Fine.
DatSpikD:
+18452359374:
Feelings mutual
DatSpikD:
wat?
+18452359374:
Nothing
DatSpikD:
ok?
+18452359374:
Ya.
DatSpikD:
so do u want me to go 2morrow?
DatSpikD:
y did i even ask obviously u do
+18452359374:
? yeah... sooo just know that no matter what i want you to go more than anything. and you can deside
DatSpikD:
k
DatSpikD:
<3
+18452359374:
DatSpikD:
send it again
+18452359374:
DatSpikD:
its not showing up again
+18452359374:
I LOVE YOU..
DatSpikD:
ohh ok
DatSpikD:
i love u 2 baby
DatSpikD:
sometimes i just dont feel like being alive and that i dont deserve u
DatSpikD:
it hurts to think that u deserve someone that wont lie to u
+18452359374:
WHY? you need to stop thinking that your not good enough you are, your perfect. and i never said i deserve someone who wont lie. and it hurts when you lie too..
DatSpikD:
im nowhere near perfect not even close...and u never needed to say it stuff like that goes without saying and i know it hurts
+18452359374:
well i do need to say it if its true, obviousally.
cause thats not true. if it was, i wouldn't be with you. but i amm arent i?
DatSpikD:
i guess...
+18452359374:
you guess? ummmm no lol
you know so.:
]
DatSpikD:
maybe
+18452359374:
stopppp im sorry
DatSpikD:
y are u sorry?
DatSpikD:
its not ur fault i was the one who lied not u
DatSpikD:
i just feel like ashamed of myself
DatSpikD:
for treating u badd
+18452359374:
you didnt treat me bad
DatSpikD:
i lied
+18452359374:
i'm sorry if i make it seem that way sometimes
DatSpikD:
u dont
DatSpikD:
thats how it is
DatSpikD:
plain and simple
+18452359374:
No. remember i lied to you before!?
DatSpikD:
when?
DatSpikD:
i dont remember that ever
+18452359374:
about the cj thing when i erased our convo.
you said it was lying
remember?!
DatSpikD:
well u had a right to i would have got mad
DatSpikD:
plus it is ur fone
DatSpikD:
and i should have trusted u anyway
+18452359374:
So? Your my boyfriend. You should be able to see whatever you want!
DatSpikD:
and ur my girlfriend but u dont need a guy thats gunna get jealous just for talking to ur friend
+18452359374:
yes i do.
DatSpikD:
no u have a life to and ever since we started dating u have lost like 3 maybe 4 friends
DatSpikD:
all because of me
DatSpikD:
im ruining ur life
+18452359374:
no you arent, not even close.
and they obviousally weren't good friends, if they stoped being friends with me because of us. so it was worth it
DatSpikD:
no it isnt ur friends are important im just a lying pothead im never gunna change ur better off leaving and finding some1 better kerry
